I wanted to share this quick routine with you all. I’ve always dealt with acne. And part of what has given me great hesitation in pushing my brand and business forward has been a lack of confidence due to uncontrollable acne.
While I may have more flare ups in the future. I feel good knowing that I’ve finally learned a routine that helps me keep my face under control. This wont help everyone, but i know there IS someone out there this will be helpful for.
Have faith my friends. Share and comment below what you use for your face.
I’m make today quick and easy. www.PaladinJordan.com is on its way yo!!!! (try it if you want to. Its just gonna direct you right back here for now, LoL)
I’ve gotten the pictures back from my recent photoshoot. Man, I don’t even know who this dude in these pictures is! WHO IS THIS GUY!? If y’all ever even knew how much I’ve loathed taking pictures forever.
He ain’t me. Ot at least he wasn’t, had you asked me….. definitely two years ago. (In my head, I’ve been on a journey to confidence for the past two years) Again, y’all thought I was playin when I was tryna give you some tips for your photoshoots. Y’all better check my post out! 7 Tips to Knockout Your 1st Photoshoot. Get into my Squinch!!! Get into my Smize!!! Get into my chin-work!
No bur seriously… This wouldn’t have been possible just a handful of years ago. It didn’t even seem possible three months ago. As some of y’all have seen. I didn’t even have a suit… not even a week ago. I was chillin so hard in my comfort zone. Which was not putting myself out there. Eventually I’ll load these pictures into my website skeleton, and I guess now I have a GREAT picture for my barren LinkedIn and business cards.
Can I keep it real with y’all though? I’ve battled self-confidence issues forever. Not really with how I looked. I mean I’ve been fine with how I’ve looked prettyyyyy much forever. I mean we all have our days. But photogenically, especially in high school and college. I hated pictures. I just never felt like what was in the camera was what I thought I saw in the mirror. I would critique everything about myself. I wouldn’t have fun. I couldn’t let myself let loose. It has at times seeped into how I’ve felt about myself. How I present myself in public. The heir of confidence I’m able to permeate from my skin whenever I walk into a new room.
Typing this, it sounds arrogant. But if y’all knew the journey that I’ve been through you would know it didn’t come from that source. I’m so happy to be able to experience myself grow. Throughout life I don’t think I would ever have said that I didn’t love myself. But can I tell you how happy I am to see in my face, and in my presentation from these pictures just how much I’m learning TO love myself more and more each day.
I don’t really have anything profound to say. I’m just happy right now. Happy that I worked with my boy Nate. Happy that I’m investing in myself. Happy to see how even through the mistakes the investments always pay off.
Actually, I take that back. Aiming to be profound… what is it that you’ve been scared to do, that you know if you DID do it, it would not only make you proud of yourself, but also move you in step(s) closer to reaching your dreams? I know this is just a photoshoot to some. But its such great documentation of the growth I’m pushing for in my life.
I love y’all all.
If you’re in NYC/NJ and you want some pictures taken I def have to recommend my bro Nathaniel Brown from NKTBrown Photography. He hooked it ALL the way up. Check him out and show him some love. He’s good at what he does. Tell him Paladin sent you! http://photography.nktbrown.com/And again. I already told y’all the secret to great pictures with him.
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Ok, so my goal is to actually get this post out. I’ve tried to write this two times before this and I just ended up trailing off in a blur.
Life is so different for me now than it was for two full years ago. You see, I’ve realized that the time I spent in Boston is a memory now for me. For so long Boston was my life, it’s finally dawned on me that I’ve been in NYC long enough to have created new memories. And in order to do so I often pull back to my time and experiences in Boston. The Bean really was a starter city to prep me for East coast living. Now, being a near two year resident. I can even begin to pull on early experiences living in the city to help push me through to bigger and better with my future. I know that sounds weird – but I want to create history. I’ll say it, even though I feel like its one of those things they don’t like to hear black people say. Of course, my boy Kanye agrees.
We read Narrative of the Life of Frederick Douglass in my Sophomore English class this cycle. I love reading about Black/African history. It enriches my soul. Imagine that we’re all sitting around making our own history, stories that people will read and learn from and engage with and write about…etc… LoL. I mean, I definitely want this blog to be a part of that history. Y’all can think I’m crazy. I don’t even care anymore. #Kanyeshrug
I read it (The Narrative) for a second time this summer during my reading marathon. That was really dope by the way, and I can’t wait to do it again this summer. One of the books I’m really excited to get into is Introduction to African Civilizations by John G. Jackson. I got to steal some time and read the first two chapters a few weeks ago during winter break. I was a HUGE Discovery/History Channel/Documentary person growing up. I’ve heard stories about the evolution of humans, but conveniently I’ve never heard much about how this evolution took place on the African Continent. The early chapters of the book discuss this evolution and actually use really engaging language that is easy to understand and follow. In a nutshell it talked about how pre-humans evolved into barbaric humans. Then how barbaric humans turned into civilized humans living in ever growing groups that turned into actual civilizations. It also talks about how humankind went from being a matriarchal society to patriarchal society.
Speaking of making history…. I mean making historically wise decisions for myself. I’m facing a tough situation at work – again (see Schoolhouse Blues). Long story short I feel like admin has taken aim on me over some bullshit. She wasn’t happy with my peroformance, and as a result gave me some very low marks on my evaluation. The difference between this time and last time is I was actually prepared to talk about it and call her evidence into question. Our last few meetings have looked like this –
I feel like I’ve stepped into a battlefield over the past two weeks, and most folks are recklessly aiming somewhere in my vicinity. Work is a mess man. Classes are ending, Classes are starting, teams are changing to frame a bit of it. The amazing difference is that I actually know my value now and have been far less hesitant giving my opinion on why things that affect my work are the way they are.
I made a conscious effort to wake up and have an amazing and jam-packed Friday. And I was pretty successful. Outside of all of the other trimester ending activities listed about, I had an early morning IEP meeting that almost didn’t happen do to scheduling and communication challenges. IEP’s were one of the most daunting things to figure out 2 years ago. The paperwork behind the scenes is still a nightmare – and to be honest one of the few areas where the powers that be try to act as though I’m incompetent. None the less, the meeting went very well and was probably one of my strongest to date. I made a quick smartboard presentation that helped the fluency of the meeting. I may try to upload the pres once I wipe all the personal information.
Most importantly… and the only thing I’ve really been trying to share over the past few weeks is that I’ve FINALLY made my first curriculum. My post graduate prep course has finally finished its first iteration. I remember back in Boston there used to be all this talk about making a curriculum or finding curriculums that spoke specifically to the students were dealing with back then. Talk about being lost! I’ve finally made my first real curriculum and it feels great. The curriculum as is is far from perfect and there’s plenty of room for growth. But having the skeleton feels amazing! Some of the things I’m looking forward to incorporating this time around is more creative writing, more critical thinking, more activities, more take home resources, more technology skill development, and… better resources in general. If you know any 😉 def send them my way.
I cant think of much more to say. And of course, this was sooo much better in my head. But oh well. Just like the gym sometimes you just gotta get in there to get the kinks out so that next time things turn out even better.